Swan Lake

My first reaction is to be radically and emotionally absurd. To feel things intensely and act out in an unfashionable manner.  So I ran. I hid. I literally shut down-cooped up and locked myself away before I self destructed. It could have been worse I presume. I could have been honest and directly verbalized my affections; but I took a subtle route instead.  I'd be lying if I said seeking attention wasn't a role to be sought in this reaction.  An even bigger lie would be that everything involving "you" wasn't going through my head. I wanted you to stay-to say more- to feel you there next to me- for you to only be thinking about me- for you to not want to be anywhere else.  But you didn't.