NP: Maroon 5, Just a feeling

It's just a feeling that I have.  It will go away soon, right?  Or will it?  The numb controls me from the inside out and I can't help but allow it.  The more thinking I do the more it hurts and the anxiety comes.  I'm good at hiding things.  Nobody really knows me.  If you think I've told you everything or anything; you would be wrong.  If you think you've snooped into the depths of my innermost valuables; you're wrong.  Because I hide things.  I don't tell people, because people don't really care about me or my thoughts or my problems or what I want to do with my life.  They may say differently but let's be honest here; who is it going to be?  The one who supports me throughout the whole journey; every up and down?  I haven't found anyone of such characteristics yet.  Maybe it's just me being selfish or insecure or not being able to trust.  But I don't- trust.  I can't.