If I'm being straight forward, I completely ditched high school. I wanted no part of anything. The drama, the ridiculousness, the immaturity, the secrets, nothing. It was a waste of time and yea, I was better than all of it. Not better than the people. But the stereotypical high school scene that I did not fit into. Everyday I walked on to that campus feeling insecure about myself and I knew that was not who I was or was going to become. Actually, a lot of the time I was trying to be someone that I just was not. Playing the victim was a habit I fell into and the self-pity I held for myself was just stupid. If you ask me now if I miss it or not, every time my answer will be no. The only part I feel like I'm missing out on is the fun cliche high school activities that are doused in laughter, memories and friends. The rest of it seemed mind melding and not in the good way. Bottom line, there was no hope for me there. I wanted to help people, change people and I expected too much of people and the result was that I only let myself down really. I knew what I wanted and I knew what my plans were and being held captive was bringing me down and holding me back. The fast track/ the straight and narrow/ the light at the end of the tunnel was the path that I was on and busting out of my restraints was the only way I was going to achieve what I needed. And I have. I have so much more lined up ahead and I'm sure I'll have to bust out of more chains that are keeping me from succeeding in the future, and walk in to the doors that God has opened for me. I'd be a fat liar if I said that prayer was not involved because it was. It was the only form of water I had to drink from and believe me, I was quenching, digging and begging for sips until the very last moment. God opened the door, I walked through it and never looked back. Not even for a split second. I was scared to death. But there is no better person to trust in than the Lord. He won't let you down ever. I prayed for guidance and his will to be done and I can confidently say, these past 2 years have been nothing but.
